Thank you fogg. I have trouble bouncing from cold to friends. I haven't found the middle ground. I agree that doing fun things helps. I know that yesterday, if she paid any attention to me at all during the tourney, then she saw me talking to tons of people. Some from our school, and some from our boys all star team that was at another school. I enjoyed catching up with these parents. Seeing their new babies, etc. One of W closest mom friends came and sat with me and talked. (She hosted the party Friday). It's nice to feel accepted for just me and to get some support.
W overheard us dads talking about joining an old man league. I'm sure that caught her off guard, since I am more of a homebody. But, I need to get out more now, since all my hobbies were at the other house.
I am actually pretty happy with the rest of my life now. Good job. Supportive boss and coworkers. Tons of friends that I am becoming closer to. Kids love hanging out with me.
But, my W was my best friend too. So that part is awful. I know all this takes time. Way more than we would ever have thought. She knows my feelings, and desire. Nothing much else I can do there. I feel that I am the man only a fool would leave. Still much room for improvement, but I am a prize already.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....