Bright, If you go, you will need to keep your expectations at zero. You will need to treat your h as a long distance friend, i.e., be civil and friendly if he should interact w/you (which I know you will).
If you go, enjoy yourself and interact w/everyone. The bottom line...be yourself. Don't change the way you say or do things, just because he's there. Besides, there is always the possibility he may change his plans and not show up. Anything can happen in a week.
Take a deep breath and if you go...have fun.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
