dday, getting out of the muck

[dday]

Well, seeing STBX or whatever she is now, everyday stinks. It makes nothing easier for me. Thursday kid swap. Friday signed papers, then party in the evening. Saturday, 3 ball games. Today kid swap. Tomorrow ballgame...

I'm not sure that there is anything I can do about it. But last night, after the ballgames, W came up to me to talk. Started as kid stuff, and my answers were short and didn't lead to anything else. I asked nothing. She tried to talk during the morning game, so I ran the scoreboard and was busy.

I'm not 100% on how to act around her. I still love her and could easily fall back into acting like "normal" us. So I feel I need to keep my distance. Physically and socially. I would be happy with going dark right now, but it's impossible with the kid stuff. Any suggestions out there for me?