I wish I could get good at what Mutatio is suggesting. I'm still somewhat stuck in the cycle of reacting. I'm working hard to get beyond that. I've accepted nothing is going to change the current course. I've got to get better at stopping behavior that locks and bolts the door permanently.
My H is abusive now, no question. He wasn't always this way. As a matter of fact, until this life overhaul, he was the most gentle man I'd ever known. That's part of the reason I'm convinced something has happened to him.
I had a thought the other day, not that I expect him to listen to me, but he started testosterone supplements through the doctor this year. The increasing dosage seems to correlate strongly with his changing personality. Could it be a blend of T supplements along with MLC? I'm really starting to wonder...
