I am really struggling with a recurring thought today. I keep thinking I would have more peace if I could just understand what H sees is going to be so much better at so high a cost. I want him to explain to me how his happiness is worth permanently scarring our five children. He was always a great dad. He would never have caused them harm under any circumstance. Yet, suddenly, he's okay with landing them a wound that will never, ever heal?
What does he foresee in his life that is going to be worth the cost of causing such a wound to the kids and leaving a wife who is going to struggle, mightily, until something changes? I want to write him a letter so badly, letting him know I don't understand.
At the same time, I'm thinking it might be a really, really bad idea which will equal pressure in some way. I just don't understand and desperately want to.
What do you guys think?Thoughts? Yes? No? Why or why not?
