You guys are absolutely not going to believe this...I'm having trouble with it myself. I woke up today, after having what seemed liked endless hours of the strangest dreams I've ever had. I was shaky, groggy, and having huge trouble concentrating.
When I finally got myself all the way out of bed, it was only to discover that I had slept straight through 2 entire days! Who does that?!?
I know I've been exhausted and sick. Maybe it all just finally caught up with me. I wish I felt refreshed. I just feel defeated and tired. The holidays are definitely adding to the strain. The funny thing is H kept texting me, and I kept ignoring him as per plan - but it was because I was unaware of anything going on in the world outside that deep and dream-filled sleep! So, in a way - huge progress was made. No response from me - he's finally beginning to feel life without me in it.
I have dropped the rope. It just sux that I had to be completely crushed before I could do it. Mentally, emotionally, and physically - there isn't much of me left. But there is a tiny little "Judy" ember to begin rebuilding with. I know who I am, and who I want to be. I guess that's a good start.
I'm going to catch up on threads tonight. I have a feeling I've missed a lot!
