Letting go of the child inside

[otw]

First off please take this however you want or throw it away as maybe I am just in a mood. I also know I am by no means good at this but I have to say these things.


You changed your name, not sure why. You are worse than before in here. I understand we come here to vent but you are asking questions and getting answers then asking the same questions. You are not at peace

Here is the part that I am going to say that you won't like and I know it is hard for me to grasp also.

Your wife does not want you. She still lives with you out of convenience. There is nothing you can do to change her mind you can change 100% and it will not matter. She has to wake up one day and decide she does want you. You could rob a bank or save a dying child and it will make no difference. You could give her dying mothers kidney or pull the plug. It will not matter.

So what do you do? Of course you still pray for what you want and take advantage of instances to get it but you live your life like it will never happen. Don't do something that goes against what you want but stop trying to make it happen. She is not a new girl you are trying to get attention of. You already did that the game has changed. Now you have to let her sit.


Please stop
Posting about fear. We all fear. If she leaves are you going to crumble up and shrivel away? I hope not. Life is what you make of it. Do not come back and say I just want my life to be my family. We get it. May not be in the cards right now. But maybe down the road. But maybe not if you don't live life!