I can't believe we're doing this same cycle with you again. I feel like that's the 50th time I've read that same post and I can almost see what you will write next. I said no more talking about how much this will effect the kids and you listed off you same old fears. I'm sorry ATP but I think I have to back out of your thread also until you take some of the advice you have been given over and over. Good luck, I understand how difficult this is for you and I truely feel for you but at some point you have to follow your own path.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be