Hi Gwen, its lovely to have an update from you, I have missed hearing about how your doing.
Its sad when the s just vanishes from life, its hard to comprehend what makes them do it or how they think this is acceptable; which goes to show that they are not in a sound mental state. Your h will look back one day and be saddened by what his decisions and actions have created, the loss of his girls and his w, his life. It maybe soon or it maybe when he is aged and alone, he will reflect back upon his life at some point.
So to the important person - You. There is a fine line between living and existing; when our s leaves us unexpectedly we get through because we have no choice, the bills need to be paid, the laundry done and children looked after, we exist, so its finding our way back across that line into living again. This opens up our mind to how we got here, how one person became responsible for us being happy, because remove them and we feel deep loss and unhappiness. I think the lesson I have learnt from this is that no matter what happens in the future, whether it is a r with my h or other person, that I keep an independent part of me and that I remain responsible for my own happiness. GAL.
So to your question - Who am I. I feel that you should not push yourself into trying to work this out, it will come naturally as you discover new things/opportunities that will come along your way. Something that you may not have even considered could be the thing that takes your life to a whole new level. So my thoughts are that you are open to everything and see where it leads you. Enjoy and embrace your new independence, discover what is out there ........ this is only my 2cents.
You never know what is around the corner, it may be your h, may be a career opportunity, maybe meet someone else or make a new friend who introduces you to a new hobby, there is always hope that tomorrow will bring something great. Today is for living and tomorrow for dreaming.
