I am lonely, I have failed at making friends on my soccer team. I am having a hard time connecting with other people right now. I feel like I am floating around with no where to land. I am going to my W family house for Christmas. I have failed to make a connection with her brother and I feel so disconnected with her family. I potentially lost a promotion because they said I was too quiet and they couldn't see me filling the social part of the new role. I reach out to my female barber as a friend and now she wants nothing to do with me. My dog that I have been training still doesn't listen to me. You would think after a hundred times of stopping and asking the dog to sit, it would just sit on his own now. I cant talk to my family right now. I hug a pillow at night to feel love. I have so many project that I have not finished. I have gifts to give my kids that are not completed. I have money problems on top of money problems. And I am getting rejected and disrespected in my own house by my dear W.
How do I over come my dependence on her? When she forcefully rips it out of me along with my heart.
Me late 30's W mid 30's T 15, M 10 S4, S7 ILYBNILWY June 2015 In house S July 2015 W rings off Oct 2015 My ring off Feb 2015 Separate houses June 2016
