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[vise82]

Hey,

Yesterday I met W at home 1.5 hours before the Christmas concert of S4, We ate lunch together got ready to go. no big deal. Met her parents there and it was the first time I had seen them in months. I shied away though and didn't say much other then hello. It was more of the same, there was no new me there other than my weight loss and not wearing glasses. I didn't get up to shake hands and go out of my way to talk. I can get really quiet and I was. I know W doesn't like that about me, my awkwardness in social situations. She doesn't like to baby sit me at parties and other social events. But That is who I am right now I am a quiet guy. Something that I understand that needs work.

After the concert we split up, she goes to the gym and I go to return some gift items that I picked up the other day because they are the wrong ones. After that I decided to get my hair cut. Now the normal barber women that does it got all weird and flaked off my kids appointment so I went to a new place with the kids. For my cut I just went to another place near the store I was at. As I get to this place I am hoping that I get a good looking girl to cut my hair, and that its not busy. As I walk up a mother and her boy get in the door in front of me. I was a little mad about it. but then I see who the boy get to cut his hair and I am not too mad. I scan who is left and there is a cute one and a middle of the road women left. The cute one smiles at me while I am in line. Then its my turn in line and the cute one gets up , she is cutting my hair. I Now normally I am quite but this time I work at not being quite and talk to her, the more practice you get the better at it you get. This is where I go weird, I feel like we have a connection and if I was not married... I don't know why this happens to me , I seem to have a big hole to fill in me to think that I have a connection with certain woman. I walk away and move on knowing that yes I am human and blood runs through me.

I pick up the kids and take them to the pet store for a present for the dog. I also need to talk to the dog training girl. I missed a class and need a make up. She is not there she is on break. Yes I do find her attractive and yes it is a nice benefit to choosing this GAL activity.

I go home and W has dinner ready for the family And we eat then we go watch some TV after I play with the kids. W is falling asleep on the couch as we all watch a movie. Then S4 wants to wrap the dog toys just before bed, so I help him then W comes in and asks if its OK to get visit with the gay neighbor for a glass of wine.

I was shocked and the fist thing that comes into my head is let her do what she wants. so I just say OK. Then I say I thought you stopped talking to him? She replies that he stopped drinking wine to loose weight that's why she hasn't seen him. She leaves and I get furious but managed to calm myself down.

Then I see she left her I pad home, I snoop and see their conversations, what was there was not every day contact maybe once every three days, but still I thought she stopped talking to him. I see he was inviting her over for wine in the past couple of weeks and she turned him down. Why bid she say yes last night? I thought maybe because how I was so quite with her parents?

She came back 20 mins later. After that I thought I not messing around with the gift questions, I go and ask her flat out what is happening with the gifts. Better communication. Ok so she says that yes she was putting gifts on the list for me to pay that she was giving to her family but she was going to put my name on them. So I asked are we giving gifts together or separate? she asked what I wanted to do, I asked her what she wanted , she left it up to me. So I said I was ok putting my name on the gifts with hers. If am paying for part of the gift my name should go on them. (not the best reason to give) Then I told her I bought gifts for her family. She was shocked and said why you never bought me gifts why would you buy them gifts. I said because I wasn't sure what we were doing for gifts so I just bought them gifts. She tells me that I could have just asked. I mentioned how she asked me about a TV she and her brother were going together on to buy for her parents and that leaves me out. She said that yes she said that but she meant herself and me and her brother and his fiancée.

Then I asked about gifts for each other. She said why would we start now, you never bought me a gift before. That's rewriting history as with a little more talk the way it was comes out. After kids came we gave gifts to each other but it was from the kids. We decided to do this to save money. She agreed to this but clearly she is unhappy about it. So I said the kids are older now the gift are from the kids now, lets get each other gifts. She was hesitant about it and said we didn't need to get each other gifts. Then I said well I might be getting you a gift, We can figure it out more when we wrap them and left the room. Then watched TV in a different room.

This morning She is up and we say good morning to each other. I get this feeling like its Friday and I want to ask her if she wants to watch a movie after the kids go to bed. I don't ask. We talk normal stuff and I leave for work like normal and she says good bye.

She texts me at work right away, saying S7 is feeling ok he was just tired, so I reply that good and ask about watching a movie.

She replies maybe, I reply ok maybe we can rent one or find on tv.