Can't believe we posted 10+ pages of material in a month. Thanks to those of you following, posting, and giving me the advice I need at a time in my life I'd never dream of living through.
Currently, wife is in fog, reluctant to do any movement towards the M, really thinks she still doesn't love me anymore, but willing to start as 'friends'. OM is out of picture, but my effort at complete NC has failed - she's still FB friends with him, and could contact him at anytime. I'm still seeing IC for my porn addiction and for the M, but so far he's a much better substance abuse counselor than MC. My pastor is also a MC, but he wanted both of us on the ship, and my wife for a month always had one leg on the shore. So, that's on hold, and now I'm back to GAL, trying to detach, and living in the basement.
Kicking myself that we never finished the basement. We did roll out new carpeting across half of it, have a big TV, my treadmill, and a place to sleep. So, it's better than a tent or the van.
My prayer every day: May I learn how to be very patient, very fast. Keep my almost 40 body going, as I'm suffering from some tendonitis, slowing my weight loss and exercise. And work in my wife's heart to see that we're so much better together than apart.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)
