WW is onboard with trying to save the M

[JulieH]

Hi JGUY

I bounce back between being extremely angry and having tons of contempt for my husband (95% of the time) and then rare states of peace, when i feel empathetic and wish the best for him. When i am having fun and when I am happy and hopeful about my own life I wish the best for him. I find most of the time I think about all the things I am mad at him for. And for some crazy reason I get really mad at his mom too, (and she wants us back together, so go figure.) I don't understand this either and it has always made me feel like I cannot trust my feelings.

You worded those states of peace I experience well... as moments of clarity. I feel good at those times and wish they lasted longer.

I had been detaching until he brought up reconciliation. Now I feel hooked and pulled back in as well. Hope made things more difficult for me.

I was advised to meditate and use imagery to get away from the anger, but I have only tried it a few times I almost feel like I am addicted to my anger and to my constant and I mean constant thoughts about husband. ITs so unhealthy.