One more thing. I have been experiencing some moments of clarity where I can see how detachment is the way forward. When I see this, it feels like freedom, expansion. I feel happy and genuinely OK with whatever happens.
However, something causes me to slip backwards and lose touch with this inspired state of mind. It never seems to last long enough to take hold. I'm not sure why, and this has been really frustrating. It's like some unconscious part of me is still attached and I keep getting hooked and pulled back in to needing to control the outcome. Then I feel empty, depressed, exhausted.
Has anyone gone through this phase of feeling detached but slipping backwards, over and over again? Any advice on how to make it hold? How to recognize why I keep getting pulled back into the desire to control?
Me: 39 W: 36 M: 8 yrs T: 10 yrs S: 7 W started coming out with the truth: 9/26/15 W finished coming out with the truth: 11/12/15 W started sleeping in guest BR: 11/13/2015