May your fantasies come true

[Ggrass]

To be honest I was always the stand up and fight back.

Then things change they get you to agree to things by covert stealth. Xh2 would always have his plan for certain things well out. He would defend his needs or plans over and above he would just keep hammering and pushing your boundary back and back. Til, you had no idea how you ended up there.

See an abuser trades on your generous side. They make mistakes, which need your generous forgiveness to prove your the person you say. You are in the role of constantly proving and fixing. Your mistakes of getting angry and calling him crazy or stupid or just losing your temper as some of us do from time to time is used as a major sin.

Your setting boundaries and calling them out on their behaviours will get you all sorts of covert and overt punishments so that you play the rug sweep, then the rug sweep is used as your sin. Your mum might have been so down trodden for so long that there was no win. It was your dads way or no way. Mine now I see used guns as a covert thing as well always having an illegal pistol loaded in the bed side draw. Making sure you never got a full sleep, and while he never actually hit me in the Truest sense he did kick hell out of me most times he was upset about something claiming it was beyond his control and was asleep.

What I'm trying to say via examples is they find ways to manipulate those things you know wrong and hard to explain to ways they can logically like I don't deliberately kick you but I cannot help lashing out without knowledge while asleep. Realistically I cannot prove he was doing it while awake, it could have been like sleep walking as we can all jump and move in our sleep with no malice.