Pink's journey - living with pain

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Hi Pink, it's good to feel some anger and good to feverishly type some of your feelings out here on the forum to release them. Also, punch some pillows or smash a few bottles in the bottle bank. The more we can release, the better we can move forward I think.

In your recent posts, you have said that you still love XH, and also that you hate him and feel like punching him in the face. I think that's completely normal and understandable, given all that has happened. I feel the same way - sometimes tender, sometimes full of pain, some anger. Sometimes I feel I have lost so much respect. But then I also remember the features of MLC and how painful it is.

I think in all of this, it is best to accept your feelings are still pretty volatile and you needn't be led by them either way. If you follow your angry feelings, you might close the door completely, and if you follow your feelings of tenderness, your XH might be staying overnight again. Fact is, you don't need to make any decisions about anything in relation to him just now. You can just live your life.

Maybe the best thing to do is follow your love and respect for yourself, and what will be will unfold in time.

Thanks so much for your kind posts on my thread. It is good to know you are looking out for me. I feel blessed to have a lovely Brazilian friend over the pond, and an Irish buddy too, and many more caring folk who take the time to read and post.

Enjoy the snow. It is mild over here and I'd love to have a cold snap xx