My DB'ing is always more of 'stay away from the W', rather than interact with her.
Because everything for you still revolves around her and your attachment to her. Which means you're not DB'ing much if at all.
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I can fake it sometimes, and actually succeed some times.
So, specifically, what are you faking, what are you succeeding at?
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It's the times I fail miserably at DB'ing that I realize I'm setting 'us' back.
Which means re-reading the book, reading posts, etc. here is all good, but if you're not going to practice it, then you're spinning your wheels. It's like walking around with a really big check that you show everyone, tell them how you got it, what it means to you, etc. But you never put it in the bank or cash it while you can't make a mortgage payment and your car gets repossessed.
Knowledge is power. But you have that now. You don't mainly need more insight, realizations, knowledge, thoughts, etc. You need to find the inner strength to DO so that you may BECOME.
