It feels like so many long-held beliefs are starting to crumble. Recently I broke free (a tiny bit) of my own 'beliefs'. Weight was one of them. If I look in a mirror, I can see parts I adore, but then there are parts i truly hate. I look at my belly and i cringe and hide from the mirror. But, there are parts I think are divine.
But I am not my weight. My belly is simply my belly. If I dont like it, I can change it any time I want. It might be hard, but my weight is not a permanent thing. I used to think I was fat and ugly. It was then I had real problems. Because fat is fixable. Ugly is forever if you believe it is true. You cant go to the gym and sweat out ugly.
You thought fat and sad. The good news is sad is not forever either. You can get instantly happy by watching a funny movie. You can lose a pound this week by working on diet and exercise. So the 2 things you do not want to feel and believe anymore are so easily fixable
I have very very strong doubts that if you lost weight, you would magically find happiness. But if that is what you believe right now, then we can help you get happy.
The truth is, you are already beautiful.
One thing I see over and over again in your posts is you apologizing for posting, or apologizing for feeling like x, or apologizing for thinking a certain way. You have said repeatedly that your problems are so small compared to other people's problems.
This is what I think you need to stop and really look at. No one else in the entire world is going to put your problems over theirs. That is why is it critical that you learn how to place your problems first in your mind. I went through 12 years of catholic school, so I know what I just said sounds just WRONG. The nuns never once told me it was OK to do this. It is not wrong. Just try it with one tiny thing. Grab one of your issues and tell yourself that this issue is more important then my issue. Its OK, I wont get mad. Post it on here or on my thread.
It is a silly stupid baby step, but it is extremely hard to do. You CAN put yourself first. You CAN take care of yourself. You are doing nothing wrong by caring for YOU.
Last edited by Mona52; 12/17/1502:10 PM.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
