Haven't posted in a long time. Finally "seeing" reality and it is horrifying and illuminating in the weirdest of ways. I am ok. I am just mentally trying to wrap my head around my part in my own life. This is hard work! LOL

Also how do I cope with the practical side of life? Just lots of new questions and I must answer them on my own.

H is literally still on the run. NC except a random text about money. NC or questions about the girls. It is if they don't exist. I submitted 3 doctor bills for reimbursement and he never asked why she went to see a specialist. That horrifies me but this is who he is now.

My most important question is... who am I?

M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters
BD: 5/14
Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW
D Final 9/17

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”
― Maya Angelou