Thank you everyone, it may have come off more self blaming than I meant it to. I also still carry a heavy burden in my heart for our M ending due to my own issues. Perhaps that just because mine were more easily seen and on the surface. Either way, PP 2.0 is living a much different life. Mona you're a saint, I hit very hard and have volunteered my services in the past (for V) if your H needs a stern talking to!
E - so good to have you back.
Feyth - thank you, you are correct about the learning!
Slow week on the M front. Got a text about Woofie letting my know his back was a bit out again but nothing to worry about. I thanked her for the message and left it at that. We'll meet this weekend for the swap. I'm a bit under the weather and fighting a cold after too much staying up late and airplane travel.
The website launch has been great, and is a big step in the dropping the rope transition. In it I write about the struggles of this year, of getting sober and doing so in the midst of a marital breakdown. Lots of people in my extended life had no idea of either one happening so it's making the experience all the more real. Hard to get through but like everyone on here, it's life so hiding it won't help.
Today I reached out to another ex, or sort of ex as we just dated, one I was with on and off as my W came in and out of the picture. I asked for the opportunity to apologize to her in person as our split wasn't that clean and I handled my end of it poorly. She was the one who was left with questions and hurt feelings, I transitioned right into dating my W and wrote her off.
She replied how thankful she was I reached out as she had been thinking of reaching out to me for years as well but hadn't. We're having lunch in a few weeks. No desire there on either of our parts, just someone I'd like to say I'm sorry to and catch up with. She was a big part of my life as a friend prior to us dating a bit. I think it will be good for us both.
Just another piece of this wild and crazy DB journey.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
