H tfish...your name looked familiar, so I followed your posts and found you in the MLC section.
I'm so sorry. If it's any consolation at all, my H is tightly in the grip of MLC. He's destroyed our entire family. I fought with all I had, but just couldn't save him from himself. Hanging on to him was like trying to baptize a cat! I had to let him go.
I'm okay, because I have so much work to do on me in the meantime. He can go "find himself and happiness" - I'll start making things better for the kids and becoming the best version of me that I can, one day at a time. That's enough for me right now.
I'm really sorry that it didn't work out - but MLC is a tricky monster and can take years, if ever, to emerge from. Healing you is absolutely the best thing that you can do right now. Take care of those boys - they will need you so very much.
