Mutatio - We can certainly work on our list this weekend! No problem. I've got to give a lot of thought to mine, in any case. Maybe we should just set a goal to get them going by Sunday evening? What do you think?
Fo - Thank you for trying to put something nice on this...but I know that's not it. Even before BD, I would complain that if everything weren't exactly how H wanted it, I would suffer for it. Somehow, I forgot that when I was busy longing for my old H. I forgot how he attempted to control every single aspect of my life. Both V and my mother commented that when I was quiet and controlled and in my room most of the time - it fit very nicely into his plans. I never realized that.
What we are dealing with, in truth, is a control freak who is not getting his way, and is throwing the mother of all tantrums at the moment. I was texting him earlier about what time I should expect him tomorrow, with him refusing to give me a straight answer. He said something about paying for a house he doesn't get to sleep in, and I reminded him that I never told him he couldn't and he comes back with more idiocy.
Remember the night the cheese slid right of my cracker? (OK - I went insane for a brief while.) I'm pretty sure I mentioned that while the police were there I asked them to loan me a gun so that I could shoot his cheating behind. (Faithfully reported to me by H.)
So now, in a text, he tells me doesn't feel comfortable sleeping in the house because I've threatened his life on multiple occasions and given him reason to feel unsafe.
I was underwhelmed. I said it was a good soundbite and the judge might be impressed for a minute. Then I quit answering him.
He is having a tantrum, pure and simple, and he is being as nasty as he can in hopes of intimidating me to fold and let him have his way. It used to work. It does still hurt. I'm not letting him have his way. His behavior is despicable.
