I am happy you and your lovely wife are doing good! Can't wait to see you guys again.
Commutes are a b!tch and can suck some energy our of you, which might be making you more vulnerable. I also have seen you in your home and you love it there and that's where you feel you could relax and be yourself. So it probably makes you feel a little unsettled when you leave it and I get that.
I was thinking about the future with my man friend and I ( we live a bit of a distance apart as you know) and I realized how later in life when blending a family, there are many different variables and challenges.which means more sacrifices. When we are younger with no attachments, children, or commitments, it's easier to blend our lives together. It takes lots of work at this point in life, but it is obvious you realize the work is definitely worth it. Just keep working it through it.
