hi LL2F and ranacan - yes, it has been a hectic 2 days, i'm slipping on my journaling H had initiated a couple of R discussions, sounds like his PA has become an EA, after 4 weeks of no contact. whatever. i'm not going there for a while. he still maintains this is his way of winding things down, and that H and I will 'always be togethr' - let's see.
in the meantime, i was blown over by underdog's post on my thread a few days ago, i'm spending my scarce online time reading up her history, all 13 threads it has been like looking a bit into my own soul, with the crazymaking tendencies, the craving for affirmation.
my journey is still rewarding, i'm not sure which direction it is taking me in, but i know i'm getting stronger, and i like myself more now than ever.
H had initiated a couple of R discussions, sounds like his PA has become an EA, after 4 weeks of no contact. whatever. i'm not going there for a while. he still maintains this is his way of winding things down, and that H and I will 'always be togethr' - let's see.
it has been like looking a bit into my own soul, with the crazymaking tendencies, the craving for affirmation. 
