Unlurking, Rd II: Hitting reset

[SciDad]

TxHubby,

First of all, thank you for coming to my thread and posting. I needed that today, and you gave great advice. It sounds like we're a lot alike - I'm a scientist with an advanced degree and tend to think I can out-think most situations. But that doesn't work here.

I am trying to stay the course and have been DBing for almost 5 months. But doubt creeps in. Today it was worse than most days. I couldn't figure out why until a couple of hours ago. My W has her work holiday party this afternoon. With OM. And not me. And there will be drinking.... I can't believe how hard my unconscious mind was working to freak me out, but I felt a lot better once I figured that out.

Another thing that helped me was a plan to reevaluate my plan. I'm not exactly sure how/when, but retooling is necessary (looks like i might have some long lunches at a park bench in my near future). I know there has been progress. I know I'm in a better position with my wife. And most importantly, I know I've made made some changes in myself that were needed to get back to where I was when I was young and full of optimism and confidence.

So there are positive signs and I need the patience to continue so that I can find more. I knew this would be hard, but I underestimated the resiliency and perseverance needed for this.