akgal - i needed you to hold that mirror up - you are right - i do not need reminders of OW - no matter how nice her sister, and how much i value her support. tomorrow promises to be hectic, so here i am posting my monday review:
positives + i changed my pattern of going to work, left earlier than H - normally i match his movements. he later grilled me about this in a roundabout fashion, it was interesting to see him trying so hard not to ask the question directly - i had dressed up extra nice, and i think he was wondering if i had a breakfast meeting i was not telling him about. i must do mystery more often. + had a great day catching up with my aunt, cousin, and a couple of friends. lots of feelgood hormones, i have a nice circle of relatives and friends, and must spend more time with them. H and i are having sunday breakfast with family, which will make a BIG change from our sundays of the past 6 months + H took me out to dinner, had lots of hand holding, cuddled up on sofa in front of tv, nice round of intimacy
negatives - hmm, mondays have been traditionally bad days, H and OW get together after the weekend of no contact. so yes, some crazymaking, and some pursuit type approaches, i had good excuses to call H but i think i need to let him do the chasing a bit.
question i've been catching anitasues posts and went bck to her begining - it was VERY interesting to see things from the perspective of the S having the A - does anyone know of other threads i can look up? even better if there was no walkaway. my H really confuses me, with the amount of love he shows me, but at the same time continuing with actions that are hurtful
