hi akgal - thank you so much for the encouragement, for a while i did wonder if i was being too selfish, and if this was deviating from dbing, not putting the R first. good to know it is ok. i plan to stick with this for a week and see where it gets me.

hey r man - awesome - she cried and you kissed - i just have a gut feeling you guys may be back together in a few months - but yes, baby steps are sooooo good for the ole PMA

well, had a chat with H's BIL just now - the only one in either of our families who knows about H's A - he is just as bewildered about H's actions - BIL has seen H with me, and can see the love, so continuing a relationship that has no future and is hurtful seems so futile. the ALIEN prevails, at least for now

i'm just reading through rotz's threads - there are so many developments that i relate to - sometimes these parallels are spooky of course, i have the 'live' A to contend with, which is so damn hard

off to the health center tomorrow - must get something for the insomnia - the bags under my eyes are big enough to check in on flights till later, everyone, slowly

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