Back on these forums again 4

[Mona52]

I like guys too Judy or I would have already been in Tx

If he asks for anything more than dancing and a few text messages, I will not be subtle. I will flat out let him know I am a cheeseless tunnel LOL

I plan on asking him for help in a million ways if he is up for it. I want to learn how to give another person what they want, instead of what I think they want. And I want to learn how to ask for what I want, instead of making them 'figure it out'. It is hard because I have been mom for almost 18 years. I was not allowed to 'want' anything. I was there to get them what they wanted. So this is all brand new to me.
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I can see how an A can be so destructive. I did not text the guy I met at all yesterday. I dont want him to think he is a large part of my life right now.

But every time my mind hit on anything sad, I just thought about something he said, and I could instantly bring a smile to my face.

I have a personality type that I love to laugh and smile and it is what I constantly do. Until the last 7 or 8 months... Now I feel like I am back in my own skin.

I went through the D papers yesterday and made post it notes on each page explaining to jerkface what he needed to do, or what that page meant. Then I threw the papers in my shed out back and sent him a text:

Me: Papers are done and in the shed

I sent that yesterday at like 5:00 pm, he never replied. I have not checked the shed to see if he got the papers.

On Monday I told my S we were going to get him a haircut

"We can't. Daddy told me he was going to pick me up tomorrow to do it."

"tomorrow" was yesterday... H was a no call, no show. Shocking.

Today S has his second session with his IC. But it is his first session alone. He really enjoyed the first session so I hope it is good for him.

Then I have a ton of wrapping to do. I have so many presents to wrap. I started watching Entourage yesterday. It was s series on HBO. It is over now, but all 8 seasons are ON Demand. So I started watching episode 1, season 1 and it was pretty funny. Not appropriate for children, but funny for me.

I will pop that back on and laugh and wrap presents.

My mom has a fake tree, so I will put that monstrosity up and get the presents under that and out of my cluttered bedroom! A clearer bedroom will take some stress off, so that is great.