I too have a strange calm. I have accepted where I am at and that one way or another my situation is going to change. An Armageddon moment!

Que sera sera. Whatever will be will be.

I'd gladly sit around a fire with you.

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together