Hi Sotto. The L papers can't be easy and it's best to accept the feelings and then move forward as quickly as you can
The whole D process is a weight and while it's not welcome it coduld be a process that may actually help lift the weight off
It's easy only a piece but it does hold a huge importance in regard to where you thoughts are and the if / when's etc. I know from previous posts the D paperwork was always on the back of your mind
I suppose the only advice I can give is to remind you what an incredible , caring , intelligent , insightful , warm , funny , loving , gentle person wrapped up in a very attractive package !!!!!