First ...breathe .... Come and vent here anytime, heck, I do it ALL the time lol.
I have two words for you Cake Eating. H wants it all and whilst you give it to him he will continue to expect it. Allow his comments/requests to slide on by, he is trying to get you to play his game with his rules, but you make your own rules mleigh, ones that are in your favour. When he left his family he gave up the right to be included in anything you do so let him stamp his feet and get into a sulk, you stick to what makes you feel comfortable.
As for reconciliation - ha ha, I am the poster girl for doing it the wrong way, so if/when this becomes an option then deal with it at that point as you really don't know what you can and can't forgive until your actually facing it.
Feel angry and p#ss#d, get it all out and then let it go, move on and find your calm place again. You are going through so much, I want to jump through the screen and give you a big hug and tell you that your doing great, you really are. You are faced with a huge challenge and you are meeting it every way it is coming at you, be proud of yourself as I sure am.
