Mu, optimism has kicked my ass many a day. Nothing wrong with having some hope, we all need that. I too have had a few rough years looking back at it. It was in large part my own fault. But remember that our W have their part in it. Don't beat yourself up too much.
Christmas is a time for miracles. Just don't rely on them too much!
Have a great day
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....