Hi PP, thanks for stopping by. It's really a pleasure, you always makes me laugh.
Yes I am latin, brazilian to be more precise. Born and raised in southern Brasil, a estate border with Argentina. My family started in Italy and Germany, then they moved to Brasil and after a lot of years I was born. Have more italian blood and a little bit of german. Not a good combination, but that is what it is.
If you take under consideration that I am not a Hollywood star, I look kind of Salma Hayek mixed up with Anna Shaffer. I have natural curly hair brown with yellow highlights (natural too), my hair is not short, it goes almost to the middle of my back in length, my eyes are very dark brown. I am 5"7' tall and 151 lbs, I guess I can loose more weight, but in my age it is not that easy anymore.
My attitude is pretty good I think. I do not like anything too much. I like being independent. I am a little insane sometimes, like loud music, my favorite bands are Muse and The Cure, like some U2, Queen, I love the new boys from One Direction and Five Seconds of Summer. Like Hip Hop too, went to an Eminem and 50 cents concert and loved it. Like motorcycles and love Jeep (the car). About movies, I like horror, really like it. Saw so many that almost nothing scares me anymore.
Hold a BS in Languages and always dreamed about becoming a prosecutor, what goes with my personality (I guess I let go on that), I was born a catholic but recently I got so disgusted with the church politics that I changed to Evangelic Christian. Well, I believe in God.
So, here you go, that is me... Pink. I guess I chose pink because I am very girl oriented. I actually love being a girl and always worry about hair, earrings, high heels, skirts, lipstick, nails, you name it. My kids are always picking on me because I am always putting lipstick when I am driving.
Now, please, don't think I am too gorgeous, I am 50 and very average. I am now very worry that I am starting showing some age under my eyes. With so much crying and not sleeping well during this last year and a half, I have noticed that my eyes need some good anti age cream treatment.
And you can laugh, but I will try whatever I can afford to buy to avoid the wrinkles, the aging process. Oh, what I would do to be 17 again.
Ahhh... I forgot, love the ocean. Did some surfing (not a pro at all) when I was young back in Brasil.
Regarding your analogy about addiction, I would say you kind of nailed it. I felt so much better I was able to say "I do not want to be with you, I don't want any intimacy". I was very proud of myself. And like you said, I believe that is what is happening, I finally got some freedom from those feelings.
I don't know what will happen in the future. Hear many stories about folks that D and in a few years down the road, they get back together. Maybe, maybe not, I don't know. I know that life is short and I probably lived more then my half already.
Sometimes I miss him badly, but then I remember that even feeling miserable, having nothing in life, he still chose to be far from me, he rather live a miserable life then work on a R with me. So I think: Be it, I will think about this tomorrow.
About RD, who knows? I am very curious and may get a crazy idea of going to Ireland one of these days. But, I guess there is time to spare since RD won't be a free man before 5years that is the law in Ireland. Crazy law by the way.
Now, I guess I just need to deal with the fact that every day I have a reminder that XWH is somewhere in earth. I know I will get better, but right now it bother me to get his texts. Even if I do not answer it, just ignore it, it still bother me to even see that I have another msg from him.
And I love the way you put it. "Innocently insert himself into your life". It is like I can't say that he is doing this to be in my life because he always have some excuses, his stuff, the walk about, his mail, the kids and so on. But why in the world is him doing this?
I told him many times already that I am his XWife, and that I do not need to know anything about him or his life, that I do not need to babysit him anymore or care about anything he does or doesn't.
Well, I guess I should show him in actions rather then say it. Then he will finally realize I am gone for good. If you don't want me, then leave me alone.
