It's been a very strange and eventful week and weekend. I need to write it all down in my journal before I start forgetting the details.
H has been stepping up like I've never seen before. He says he is committed to our M, does not want to S or D or be with OW, and acts as if he suddenly understands what my needs are and how to communicate his own. We have had several really good conversations and a lot of just relaxed, comfortable interaction. We are purposefully practicing each other's love languages - and laugh about it, in a good way.
I know making up/reconciling can bring on intense feelings and a 'honeymoon' phase, but it sounds like H has really understood something he didn't before. I have not seen him like this before. It's interesting, because he doesn't really like MC, but I think our sessions earlier in the spring has helped him get here.
I have seen our MC by myself, twice since this all happened, and she seems to think I am doing what I can do to allow this to happen while also protecting myself to the best of my ability. In my nightmares, this is all an act on H's part to protect his finances and lull me into a feeling of safety while he still continues pursuing his plans with OW.
There are still a couple of things that need to be done before I can really start trusting this radical transformation - in addition to just time, of course. It has to do with the logistics of H's communication with OW. He is willing and has promised to take care of it, but it hasn't happened yet. H knows it is important that this happens soon.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
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