Pink's journey - living with pain

[PigPen]

I don't know what exactly is happening to me, maybe I am tired of all this, maybe I am a DB pro now, maybe I love myself more then I love him. Really, it all started on Thanksgiving, when I was strong enough to say NO to him, and then I said that he will be happy and that in a few years it will all be just a memory.

One of the things I've found with addiction Pink is that the first time someone is able to turn down the substance, or person their addicted to a shift can happen. It's step 1 in a process that absolutely cannot begin until that step 1 is taken.

Often times there's a lot of work that's been done, and a strong desire not have the substance in their lives, and once step 1 is taken, all of that work and desire comes out. If that makes sense. Like the floodgates open up a bit.

You've done a lot of DB'ing and been through an emotional chitstorm, so I will venture to guess that the first time you stood up for what was best for Pink and stepped away from the addiction to XH's energy, a shift happened and that's what you're feeling right now.

Every day you will get a bit stronger, no matter how often and how "innocently" XH inserts himself into your life (really, a text about school's being closed, come on man). You're now building the real house upon the foundation of DB'ing that you've already done.

Great work, you sound stronger already in your texts.

I will say I was taken aback to hear that you were latin, for some reason I pictured you sounding like Bruce Willis's girlfriend in Pulp Fiction! I have no idea why, something about the name Pink. Anyway..

Big hug to you and Rd,

PP