No problem, I'm not very picky. LOL. Feel free to talk, we learn all the time.
Thanks all of you for the amazing support.
Sotto - yes, it could be, just out of his league. I think it just took me by surprise. It's hard not to be who I am since I kind like what I am. I am pink that likes blue, I am a devil with angel wings. Got the picture? Ha ha.
RD - what do you mean don't change a thing. I do not want to come across as too snobby. Maybe I can just be a little more relaxed, not too guarded.
Rain - Like you, I have that Latino culture, so we are a little different. I don't think it is a bad thing, but it is there.
Grlonfr and Sunny B - Thanks, and I think you are right about the brick wall. I really don't want anyone in my life right now and I am not ready to even hang with someone in a romantic way. So, it could be that people just sense that guard brick wall.
I did not post but I got this text from XWH on monday morning:
" Good morning Cira - I want to apologize for last night. I thought I had scheduled the afternoon of the 13th. I will ask them if they want to go out tonight, OK?"
Did not answer. Did not care at all. He is crazy.
Today, we have a big snow storm and all schools are closed. So, I got this text.
"School is closed... have a nice day!"
So, I guess I will have a reminder that he is still alive every day. I feel I can never just have a day. A day with no XWH subject around.
I am feeling a little better now. But I also feel that the reason is because I am avoiding XWH. I feel a little more detached I guess. I still think about him, not all the time, but I do. But it is different now, I think about him but rather be away from him.
I am still thinking that when S15 graduate from high school, I will try to move away from here. Go somewhere, start anew and put some many miles in between XWH.
I am also not worry about OW and him. He can do whatever and it is not my business.
I don't know what exactly is happening to me, maybe I am tired of all this, maybe I am a DB pro now, maybe I love myself more then I love him. Really, it all started on Thanksgiving, when I was strong enough to say NO to him, and then I said that he will be happy and that in a few years it will all be just a memory.
Well, need to work from home today. I am quite sure I won't be driving tomorrow. Today, the roads were really bad.
