Wife checked out

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Thanks as always for your incredible insight Sandi

I had actually thought about some of these things but them old WWs are wiley creatures. I do believe that she hasn't been sexually active with anyone else but then again I have made the mistake of trusting her before.

My travels were great, I was able to do a lot of hiking and a lot of thinking. I can see how the attachment is affecting me and starting to see what I need to do to let go. It won't be easy and it won't be overnight but I at least have a starting point. I made a few decisions during my trip that will help me move on and get past how her actions are affecting me and the kids. One of which will be me going back to work for a company. I will still keep my business running in a limited capacity but need the security that a full time job offers. This is in anticipation of the worst and I won't be caught with my pants down again. I need to ensure the safety of the kids.

This is one thing that really irks me about the timing of her freak out. Right in the beginning of me trying to get started with my own business after years of planning. It's almost like she has picked the absolute worst way to get me. I'm sure it wasn't intentional and probably is part of the reason this is happening. She has been working for a year and a half basically supporting us during the start up. Never a dull moment with WW!