Let this go Jelly, breathe, how you look today is not what's important although it may feel that way. What's important is who you are and the path of growth you're still on.
Big hug,
PP
PP, thank you for your post and reflections. I have never understood this concept of looks not being important? The world affirms beautiful thin healthy people. Research supports this.
Maybe I confuse beauty and thin with happiness? This one is hard one for my little mind to get its head around PP. This likely harder that any DBing.