Adventures of PP, Woofie, and the WAW (9)

[PigPen]

Thanks for posting Judy, I know it's hard to look back and see how we all acted after the fact. Truth be told, I joked with my business partner a few months before BD, "I'll be surprised if I'm still married this time next year." And then I did nothing about it. I didn't really believe it but I still said it so on some level I knew things weren't as good as they could be. More to let go...

I've been thinking a lot about detachment and the layers of it, even more after writing about the second to last dog swap and how I still have the desire to prove to my W that she was wrong in leaving. To prove that what she's said about me isn't true (believe nothing...). To somehow make myself into a victim here and not look at the big picture and the positivity of it.

I'm not sure if that's the continuation of the detachment process - losing the desire to be right about your sitch, or argue the finer points of what's been said during the few times that we are together. I'll venture to guess that the LBS's ego wants to argue the finer points with some misguided desire that the WAS is still going to come to her senses when presented with enough facts.

Letting go feels like a daily practice now. Catching myself in thought patterns or the imaginary arguments with my W in my head and having to say, "STOP, think about something else."

Judy, you're doing a great job. I know you've got a long road and some things you're not proud of in your sitch, but day by day is all that any of us can do. Every day is a new opportunity. The past truly is dead, it doesn't exist even if people try to keep it alive with their thoughts and comments.

Your best day today is a great goal.

PP