Really struggling this morning again with the anger. My emotions have come in overwhelming waves. I just want to March down to the courthouse and file. I'm nobody's plan b. Anyone have any thoughts? Experiencing this?
Absolutely, Nate. It's a daily struggle for me. In my case my wife is literally leading a double life. Making it appear she is working on our marriage while simultaneously telling the OM how much she loves him in texts. Might still only be a EA, might be a PA. Thing is I don't give a (#$%$) what she's doing until she breaks ties with him. Until the day it bothers me and I'm a blubbering mess wondering why I'm trying or if it's worth the effort
My point is that our emotions and reactions to our situations come in cycles, with good days and bad days. Detaching your emotions from your W's actions are the key to evening out the cycle and to have fewer oscillations between Highs and lows. It's not easy, but it is the only way to survive intact.
Why do I stick to my guns through the pain and struggle? At my core I feel the need to give this a chance. Walking away and giving up is the easy way out, and I've never taken the easy way out. Also, as painful as this is, every day we stay together-ish is another day to improve myself and, importantly for me, spend all the time I can with my kids.
Me-38 W-38; T-15 M-12; S10 and S6 BD - July 2016; EA confirmed; confronted Aug 2015 EA dissolved 12/2016
Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option - Maya Angelou
