I've done a lot of reading on MLC, thank goodness. I believe it's the main reason I haven't completely lost my mind. I don't know what I'm going to do. It's way too early to make decisions about standing or anything right now.
I've been hurt so deeply by this that I have a lot of healing to do, on many levels. I'm going to be totally selfish and just take care of me. I tried, desperately, to help him. He didn't want my help. So, it'll break my heart, but I'm giving him what he says he wants. Me gone. But I'm not leaving on his terms. I'm doing that on mine.
I'm going to follow your lead in finding a job I love (I haven't heard back from the one I was so excited about - but it could be another week or so before they're finished with interviews. I know they liked me. Fingers crossed.) I'm going to get out and about and make new friends, do new things, figure out who I am and become the best version of me I can be. I'll keep coming here, because I can't stay away! LOL
I really understand you, though. I know you love your H, still - so I sense a kindred spirit with you. I still love the one I had for a while. If he ever makes a return, I'll DB like crazy until he's mine again. LOL
I did plenty wrong in the marriage. I'll work on correcting the things I'm actually able to change. I can't do a personality makeover, but I don't want one. I'm already figuring out there's lots about me that I like. H had me brainwashed into his point of view regarding me, but that spell is over.
