Hi mate. Could you ask the Dr for some medication to help you calm down
I'm afraid to ask but how did you fall out with D. My D14 goes to an I/C and I wouldnt dream of asking my W to go
Most divorces are not good for the kids but they happen and life goes on
IF and it's a HUGE IF, your W decides to work on your R it will be a long time before that starts I've read the average is 1 month for every year together so you have years to go. Accept that,
This is your life and you can let this sad event define you forever. In 20 years time you can be on here saying how W made a terrible mistake but it still happened
My dad is now 80 and he regrets with all his heart leaving my mom 38 years ago.
Those regrets won't help you. They don't help me now
I can tell by your posts you are saying / doing more than your telling us and if your not telling us it's not good stuff your keeping back
Time to man up , accept what is and show your kids you will be the best dad ever
Please get back to Dr , get some help and start to accept what is