The beauty of the shifts that you've written about Feyth are that when the emotions come (and they will) you will be different in your experience of them. You have become a different person, something that is extraordinarily hard to do.

When people say "change is hard" I have to laugh. For most of us on this board it took losing that which we hold most dear in the world - our families - to elicit that change.

But when it does happen as evidence by the shifts you describe (and I believe you that they are very real), it's magical and will stay forever. That's the other excellent part of shifts born out of extreme trauma, there's no going back from them.

Congratulations on your growth, I know you've still got some pain to walk through and my heart is with you.

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