well, it had to happen, i suppose. monday was going quite well, till dinner, when i asked H if he had heard from ow. why, oh why, did i do that? well, yes he had, she called in the morning, ostensibly about work, then they got into 'difficulties' she was having with her H. a 2 hr conversation, apparently. i'm sitting here, completely drained of all PMA, wishing i was somewhere else. why does my H do this? why is he loving towards me and at the same time, pursue another relationship? shouldn't the end mean the end?

has anyone else been through this? am i being a fool to keep dbing? i worry that this is all a self delusion, and the H is planning another life anyways... sigh. i know, i need a STOP sign. but d**^ it, this is so painful and hard.

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