hi everyone - pegged out early last night, and find myself able to reflect better in the morning anyways so i guess this will be my 'do something new' for the week

positives yesterday
+ we both ended up having really hectic days at work, so scrapped the dancing and chose to have a relaxing meal at a nearby restaurant. it was very nice, and came home, sat together to watch tv, crashed out on the sofa
+ did the supportive posts
+ validated H on several fronts - frustrations at work, his family, us. lots of eye contact from him

not so sure
? we got chatting about how the current transition is affecting us, and that i've been guilty of not showing him enough compassion and projecting my anxieties a bit too much. he started tearing, and validated my sentiments
??? i asked if there was any more contact with OW (why did i do that *&^%$#@!) and he said no, but like all the other crazymaking, i'm not sure i believe him, so why the %$#@ did i ask?

targets for today
+ H wantes to come over for lunch again i plan to be upbeat, fun
+ last time i'll write about being supportive on bding - seems to be a natural thing now
+ do something different for dinner, make H feel cherished
+ plan together easter break activities

ok gang, wish me luck, and wisdom not to go down cheeseless tunnels. hugs, slowly

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