Ancaire, wow. I am so sorry that you are going through this. H behavior is truly shocking, and absolutely horrible. Protect yourself and take care of yourself through this! I am glad that your children are supportive to you.
I just read your message on my thread. It is crazy that they can tell when we let go, isn't it. I am sorry that yours went a bit crazy when you dropped the rope.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
I meant to tell you earlier how much your comment about strangers seeing value in me really uplifted me. I've been in places I never dreamed I'd be, but I've found good people everywhere. It's hard on the self-esteem when you've been devalued to such an extent. But I realized you were right. I met these people one time, and they were genuinely happy to see me again. Thank you for pointing that out. I really needed that today.
As brave as I'm trying to be, H has absolutely crushed me. I keep asking myself how horrible I was that he feels he can only be happy if he can get away from me. That hurts. I loved him with everything I had. I've got a lot of healing to do.
Ancaire, you are so strong. I wasn't kidding a while back when I said that you could make your story into a lifetime movie, only now I think it could be a miniseries. I am so happy you have it on film. Can you at least lock your bedroom door? Or get a german sheperd or other guard dog to stay by your side? I am worried for your safety.
I have a Bichon Frise! Only that dog LOVES H. LOL I've locked the door - he breaks in. I'm going to have to trust that his lawyer talks some sense into him. Once he finds out his behaviour could cost him way more than he wants to spend - he may settle down.
He's lost control and is raging about it. I'm a little worried about my safety, too. But I've got good people checking in and supporting me long distance...and I really believe God will give me a hand, too. H is selfish at heart. He doesn't want to go to jail. What would he do with only other hairy men to chase?
It's out of my control now. He chose his behavior. I only stood up for myself - I wasn't trying to rob him. He doesn't agree with the law. I live in one of the worst states to live in if you're a homemaker being dumped for something newer and better. Seriously. Men love it here! And in spite of that, he thinks what the law spells out as necessary is too much. Good grief.
He is funny about money, always has been. Only now that everything is suddenly "his" he's gotten rabid about it.
I think it was on your thread I posted that his ugly skank OW is a professional thief. It's hard not to be amused by the Karma on that one. Over 30 arrests for theft of some type! No wonder she looks so rough. Most of the theft involved checks and embezzlement. I'm being mean again. Let me enjoy it for...three, two, one! Ah...I needed that.
The poor heart is taking a nap! I'm quite thrilled about it, actually.
I do believe H's lawyer shook some sense into him. I heard him come in, but not a peep. He also texted me twice while gone earlier with polite requests.
I love my L! She's awesome. Now I'm exhausted and ready to get a little sleep.
Well...I keep my bedroom door locked - good there.
My boys are always here at night - good there.
Criminal scuzzy is still trying to lure H - I doubt he has any clue about her past yet.
I am being as safe as I can. When my L contacted his L to demand he stop his behavior at once, I could tell she was also building her argument to the judge. He's been playing on my fears quite well, and she was very reassuring. I really like her. She's calm, steady, and she really cares.
I have not heard a peep out of H. I really know most of this started because I'm not bending to his pressure, but also because I hurt his feelings this morning when I thought it was my son at my door, and when I opened it and saw it was H, I didn't conceal my reaction of unhappiness to see him.
He's not used to it at all. I don't care for who he is at all right now, and there was no good reason on earth to be in the house at 6 in the morning. I wasn't happy.
Got a good rest this afternoon - but I am still exhausted. Will catch up on a few more threads and go back to sleep!
It's good that you aren't alone. It's also good that you can see that your H isn't who you thought him to be... at least for now. That aids in detaching, or it does for me. He's probably gonna test your boundaries some more. Be strong! Get your rest and take care of yourself. Live, don't just exist (talking to myself too).
You are some one only a fool would leave. Hope you have a great day!
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
Also, I know it might be another week until you hear about the job. Your self esteem has already taken a huge hit lately, dont let this job do even the littlest of more damage.
We are excited to hear the outcome, of course they loved you, you know that. But do you have a plan B brewing? Gone are the days where you throw all eggs in one basket
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
