Time to Let Go.....How? (6)

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So I figure now that i have had a nights sleep I will come back and give some more information on my last post and especially now that I have had a chance to process a little more


So Friday the kids went to school and W is scheduled to get them. I have noticed the weekends are rough either if i have kids or not. If i do not have them i struggle to find something to occupy my time that does not involve heading out with friends to bars or something. I really do not want to do this. When i do have the kids I find my self wondering what is going on in the other world of my W.

So i know right now i am going to be planning better for the weekends and keep busy productively.
Saturday speaking to the kids they were in the truck with W and mentioned going to see santa on sunday and they wanted me to go. I asked W the deal, and she said she is meeting her friend and her kids there and wanted to know if I wanted to meet them. I accepted as I have not taken kids yet because i figured we should all go together anyway for the kids.

Sunday came and met them. Everyone looked great. W, kids and I all had some lunch after and we talked a bit about this and that. W drove us to my truck on the other side of the mall after to get backpacks etc..As we were all giving goodbyes her and I had a quick second of looking at each other. It was a different look than recent. When we were eating i made sure to look her directly in the eyes while we were talking. This may have been an extension from that.

Now before i continue I do not want to sound like a jerk, but at that risk i need to explain something. Before W and i were together and even after I have had no problem getting attention from women. Through the years I ahve been able to pick up on just simple ways they look at me and read it very well. Sorry if that sounds extremely cocky or whatever, but...
So when i caught this look from her i immediately knew this was different. I have seen this once or twice since she moved.
So this got me going and wanting to extend more communication. I am not stupid and can see that I may be looking way to far into something in a look that I could easily be wrong about. Even if I wasnt wrong this thought of hers could have come and gone just as fast. So after the occurrence earlier this week with thinking there is someone else to this I am all messed up. I know i should just let it go because I am doing all of this in my head without anything actual on either front. I will say this that siting here typing this is actually helping me work through it all!

So my take aways from all of this is, stay the course, focus on GAL for weekends with and without kids, and read DR again. I started reading it again and crazy what you can pick up when you are not in the same frame of mind as last time.


I am going to come back with a question I really need help on in a different post regarding the holidays, but i dont want it to get lost with this post.