A new thread for Eye-Tie

[EyeTie]

Since it's been a few weeks since my last update, I figured I would toss one out to you all.

Life is good, sadly I am working 50+ hours a week, which is starting to take a toll on me. I am still dating J and am looking forward to spending Christmas with her and her daughter. Due to the "schedule" I will have my kids Christmas Eve and then will bring them to my exes Christmas morning. She did invite me to stick around if I wanted to, but I think it's best that I drop them off and go on my way. The divorce is still no where in sight, I have no idea what to even say anymore about it. Part of me thinks that I should just file and get it over with, the other part of me doesn't really care enough to do so. Luckily, J isn't too upset about the situation and understands it.

Sadly, I am dealing with the holiday blues and actually miss my ex. I find myself thinking of ways to "get back together" which I like in theory, but in reality it would be a train wreck. I think too much time has passed, too much damage, too much hurt has happened to even make it an option. Which is actually ok, I think I am just missing that part of my life (to some extent) and will be fine.

I guess at the end of the day, I am still a little broken. But it's ok to be broken, no one is perfect.