We are on the page, there is no push to be had we are on the same page.
I have been Paelo/Primal on and off since the beginning of September, full Paelo since the beginning of October. I do not crave carbs at all now, not even when anxious or anxiety attacks.
I am stuck with the weight loss V. Nutritionist believes is gut related. My feeling is that it is this, but also core issue related. I am beginning to form the belief that my self loathing, childhood trauma issues sit directly in gut cells and fat cells. Once of resolve this self love.self hate issue. Likely weight will fall off, food and exercise self care will stop being an issue.
My plan had been in the New Year to get all my bloods and gut checked, so I really new what I was dealing with.
As for the belief system related to looking lovely on the outside is lovely on the inside. I have no idea where it originated. I have said for many years when teasing my mother about our Catholic upbringing that Catholics work on the premise "if it looks good, it is good". I was raised Catholic, my mother worked for a Catholic Boarding school, through my whole life priests, brothers and nuns, were part of our daily lives. After 35 years of service to the catholic boarding school my mother was made a honorary member of the order by the Pope. I spent my whole life attempting to be the best Catholic School girl and considered becoming a nun for a time. When this didn't happen I thought I would become a good wife and mother. I waited till I was 29 to have sex waiting for the a husband and father to my children to come along. He never did. I walked away from trying to be good. I couldn't walk too far away I was a very good girl and became a social worker, completing by acts of service to God through my work. I don't know how valid any of the above is to what you ask. But likely a link.
PS: no offense meant to any practicing catholics. I loved my Catholic upbringing and if I had had children I would have raised them in the church. The grounding of morals and virtues I feel for children is very important. I would have wanted that for mine.
It is not a tough question to answer Lady V. I completely hold myself to this standard. I completely allow my weight to hold me back. Living my life has happened losing one kilo at a time. The lighter I have became the more able I have felt to live my life the way I wanted to. The more options I have felt, the more confidence I have had in myself. Right now I feel as ugly inside and out as I did at my heaviest of 156kg.
Thanks for the post V. I think we are both on the same track.
