And couple of things occur to me the first concerns belief systems, an obvious belief is that because someone looks lovely on the outside they are lovely on the inside. Where did this belief originate? Do you know people who are the reverse? Lovely on the outside but ugly on the insidedge or beautiful on the inside and ugly on the out?
Is this a long standing belief? How valid is it?
And the toughest question of all, to what extent do you judge yourself by this standard? Is it your weight that holds you back?
My next observation is about resistance, I am chatting with Mutatio on this and his issue is quite different, his issue is about accepting changes on the inside.
OK I am going to muse on this a little while, clearly there is a barrier to extreme care, as part of extreme care is becoming physiologically the healthiest you can be. Healing from the physiology up, in doing so there is weight loss and movement to ideal weight and fitness. So your remarks tell me that this aspect of extreme care has been deferred. That's ok as you work on stabilising you, it's a good sign that shift is coming to tackle this aspect. Perhaps that part of you 'Ms lovely steel buns' could be a motivator for you, that part of you that wants to be fitter and slimmer.
Anxiety won't help as you will crave carbs and sugar, which will soothe you.
Jellyb have you had the bloods done? Do you know your numbers?
Your post comes across as shame, and a little disgust is this so?
There is much comparison too, we can all compare ourselves to others, younger, stronger, slimmer, blonder, darker, taller, smaller, fitter, etc. How valid is this to do?
Can we put a stop to these thoughts when they start?
Would working on extreme care help you?
As always Jellyb if I am pushing too far, you can say not now V, that's ok.
V
Last edited by Vanilla; 12/14/1508:35 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
